Freedom

Last night as I was putting Matthew to sleep, I had one of those moments when something suddenly clicks and you are able to see things more clearly. For those of you who read my previous blog, you know that one of my barriers to truly worshiping and communing with God is fear. It's fear in all sorts of forms...fear of not being heard, fear of God not coming through, fear of my sin, fear of not being good enough. Sometimes it's fear in my everyday life that brings me down and the discouragement that comes from believing lies about myself or others keeps me away from the Lord. Fear is the one emotion that has always existed in my life in one way or another.
So back to last night, I'm sitting there with Matthew and I start to pray and talk to the Lord about this plaguing emotion of fear. During that prayer, the Lord opened my eyes to a supernatural reality. I was able to see Satan's evil assignment against me and how he has used fear to steal my joy so many different times. I was also able to feel the burden of fear on my shoulders in such a vivid way. In that moment, I called on the power of the name of Jesus and asked that He would lift that burden from me. The scripture that came to my mind as I was asking this of the Lord was one that I had read earlier that day in the book of Matthew. It says that when we ask anything believing that we will receive it, it will be done for us. True to His word, the burden was lifted and peace filled my heart.
As I have gone through my day today, there is a joy inside because of the freedom that I received last night. My worship today came from a deeper place in my heart because I encountered the God that I was worshiping. It never ceases to amaze me at how quickly and effortlessly He can remove burdens we've carried for years and years. In one week of being in the word, a heavy burden was lifted from me. I am exited to see what He will continue to do as the month goes on.